Like most people, I am not immune to the tendency to self-reflection at this time of year. There's something about the combination of overeating and downtime from work that makes me reconsider who I am and where I'm going. Add a Christmas cold and some time to read Dave Pollard to the mix and you have a recipe for radical re-thinking.
This to say that I'm going to be taking a short sabbatical from The Bamboo Project for the week. I'm feeling like I'm not quite taking things where I want them to go here and I feel the need to figure out what it is, exactly, that I'm trying to accomplish. In particular, I'm feeling like I'm doing an OK job of being intellectual here, but in the process, I'm losing some of my heart. My heart is what keeps me going in this business to begin with, so not being able to find it is no small thing.
I find that I'm more frustrated than anything lately and I need to consider why that is and what to do about it. I also feel like I'm forcing too many things to happen, rather than giving into the flow of where life may be taking me. In my experience, it's always bad for me when I'm trying to control every outcome. It means that something isn't working right and I need to find out what that is.
So I'm going to take a few days off to try and figure that out. Wish me luck.